Category: Biology and physicalism

I forgot: I’m in the house on the river

I was defeated with tiredness, my mind was a cloud of unclarity, my will was nought—I could perceive but not exert. I was done for.

So I slouched forward, almost in Rabbit Pose, at the huge low glass table that has become my writing table since Cuntjin left.

I saw m...

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The explosion of a lifetime

A lifetime, the gradual unfolding of bodily development, is actually a slow, lifelong explosion. After our reproductive prime, the body begins to fall apart. Then, when we die, this falling apart accelerates rapidly. Then the body visibly explodes, and its flesh-clay mixes rapidly with the soil, air, and water that...

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Can neurons break the rules?

What makes us think that brain cells are any less automatic than ligands signaling platelets to migrate towards a wound? Do you intend your ligands towards an unknown cut? And do you then have them secrete signal chemicals to attract a convention of platelets? Are you really the master behind...

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Your house is on fire

Meiosis is deepest spiritual trauma.


The compulsive, perpetual making of half-selves is you. That is the movement of everything, at the particular location of your body. The universe makes negentropic islands that dream of Immortality.

Fulfilling sex, a.k.a. love, is existence and self.

To say that love is the...

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Self-deconstruction by way of materialism

The so-called subject (The Voice that says “I think …”) is a chemical process. It’s not just that The Voice is chemicals. It’s worse than that. The Voice—aka you—is a chemical process.

That’s right—“you” don’t even exist as a substance-type thing. You are rather a way of movement. And the substrate that moves is...

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Self as artifact of grammar

In your gross form, the so-called YOU is a collection of gelatinous blobs hanging onto rock-like sticks made of calcium phosphate.

What about the ghost-like self that seems to be running the blob-covered sticks? The self is an artifact of The Voice—the commentator who prepends “I think …” to its announc...

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A new Way of Unity

… that the YOU right here sitting now is the same YOU that undertakes gastrulation.

But why stop there?

Rudolf Otto was the Joesph Campbell of mystical experience and succeeded in reducing all particular mystical (here defined as subject–object fusional or self–universe combining) experience to two purely formal types—the Inward Way and the ...

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People are basically walking sponges

So I was about to Google what is probably the smartest thing I’ve ever said, which is that people are basically walking sponges.

Smart because true and startling. (If a sentence is true but surprisingly so, then it’s smart or stand-up worthy.) Sponges are the key moment in our evolution bec...

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The extent of magick

Magick, the causing of change in conformity with will, is self-evidently operative in certain domains. For example:

  • My will itself is an object under magickal control of my will. I can will myself to will one thing rather than another.
  • The imagination is under magickal control of my wil...
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Like this drop of water here, particles are still tethered, by their substance, to their source.

Polyps, not particles

That particles (particulate matter, spherical blobs, or wobbly spiky blobs, or quivering string loops) decay is … astonishing. That particles exist is astonishing. What supports their short-lived presence? To handle this notion in our 3-D imagination, we use the upward surge of a droplet of liquid from the surface of a...

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Matter is sentience

CSH: Content was making the Searle point that consciousness simpliciter is not a formal-abstract information processing network, something that can be replicated by a Turing machine. Consciousness is not the effect of value-mapping. It’s not address content changing with an algorithm. That thing isn’t the consciousness. What it is, is the...

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Survival and survival-irrelevant interests

Physics has made survival-interested cell giants. Our survival interest is something basic. We are cellular automata, and our current configuration is a logical consequence of the tautological fact that any pattern will exist only if it exists. We don’t know if existence is good or bad, but we do know t...

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